Like A Crescendo Of Chaos

My undoing was all at once and a long time coming.

TW: Suicidal Ideation

My life fell apart in slow motion and like a train wreck all at once.

In April, 2020, I confided to a dear friend that while I was out driving to get groceries- a luxurious solo chore I cherished in the early weeks of lockdown- that I thought about sending my car flying off the highway, and that while I was thinking this and driving, it felt like peace.